A year ago...

I can't believe how fast everything has gone... this time last year I was so deep in depression I don't think I had seen the sun in over a month. Gone to Ground was my favorite/hated post and I spent most of April alone in my boarding house room with the shades drawn, curled under a blanket trying to stay warm and not to cry. I didn't want my kids to see my tears when I would Skype them later in the day and I am a lousy crier... all blotchy and red.

So thinking back it was almost a hibernation... my cancer a chrysalis and I would emerge something new.

I hesitate to continue as I don't want to sound smug or self-centered, but in all honesty I believe I was meant to suffer, and meant to come out swinging.

Life has taken so many turns and every corner has something new and exciting! My love for Dave couldn't be stronger as we battled together and won. Our boys are growing and secure inthe knowlege that anything can be beaten with enough determination, I've begun a new careeer, and being ill has given me a new empathy for those in need.

I am not going to ramble as I really should be working but needed to drop in and give you all an update.

Keep fighting no matter how hard the battle, because you keep giving hope to those around you. People are watching no matter how you hide and you will be the better for it.


Love you all and talk to you soon.

Bobbi

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Nicely said! I was right there with you, curled up in a ball and crying everyday. Amazing what a year will do for us! Glad to hear your life is full of love and happiness.
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It's stories like yours, Bobbi, that should be 'required reading' in the cancer community: No matter how dark and dreadful the journey may be, it can -- and often does -- take us to a better place. Thank you for sharing it. Big, humongous hug, B
Ditto to Bill's comment. You have come out the other side and isn't it beautiful? Thanks for helping me remember what the fight was for. I am glad you are doing so well.
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You are such a fighter and an inspiration. Your kids are lucky to have a mom that is so brave and strong. Congrats on your new career, we are behind you 100%
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Wishing you a Happy Birthday Bobbi and continued good health.... Kevin
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What a beautiful post. Thank you. Going to share it!
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Happy Birthday Bobbi! as one who has not even been on BFAC for 12 months yet.. thank you sooooo much for sharing
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Thanks so much for this post! I am headed into battle with the same thing you have and the same treatment minus the LEEP. I hope my outcome is like yours! This is very helpful to the rest of us! Bright spot in an otherwise ugly sky! THANK YOU!!!!!
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Happy Birthday Bobbi, You look and sound great! love and hugs Sabina
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So true Bobbi,sometimes we just need time.Day to day is the right way.We all go to that dark place in our life.Goodluck again and take care
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February 19, 2013

Canada T7E1J

April 24, 1976

Cancer Info

Cervical Cancer

adenocarcinoma

February 12, 2013

Stage 2

4.1 - 5.0 cm

No

the fear of the unknown, what could happen to my family if things go south

to never stop fighting, to accept help when offered, and to support others as it lifts your spirits too!

just kick my tail when I get too low, assist with my kids and their routine, be a friend and listener to my hubby

the help of using MRI vs CT with treatment, not detection.

Hugs, and a reminder life is what it is. a gift no matter how short...

Cross Cancer Institute of Edmonton

Eat what they tell you to, excercise when able, and breathe

Stay pissed off as anger helps to motivate you. When you accept and stop fighting, you stop... period.

May 16, 2013

abnormal bleeding between periods, after/during intercourse, pelvic pain, painful intercourse

5 chemotherapy sessions with cisplatin over 5 weeks

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